10 months (: (:
It has been 10 whole amazing months since this wonderful guy has asked me to be his girlfriend. I really could not imagine it any better, or with anyone else. It all happened and worked out to be the most amazing times of my life and I know it will only get more amazing as our days go on and on :D
On August 2nd, it will be a whole year that we’ve been talking and began falling in love with eachother ! :D
In two months, it will be our one year for being together ! :D Yay ! That makes me so so so so so happy ! :D
He’s the reason my life is so happy and beyond amazing ! He makes my day, every day ! :D I couldn’t go a day without him !
Each and every day, he’s my reason to smile ! He’s the one who makes me happy and can get a smile out of me even when I’m crying :D
He knows me better than anyone, and I couldn’t imagine anyone else being that way to me :D He actually cares and always always always wants to help no matter what ! And he always finds a way to help ! :D
We have late night phone conversations every night and we talk about everything from our childhoods to our future together :)
I’m so happy with everything :)
We get into tickle fights and I always end up losing cause he’s super strong and can restrain me so I can’t tickle him anymore :P We tell eachother stories, whether they’re real or made up, we always love listening to eachother :) We make up new names for eachother almost every day and always make up more because we talk about such cute things like snuggling and blue birds ! :D We can be crazy or absolutely serious with one another because of how close we are :D We sing to eachother and make up our own songs :D We walk around wal-mart and have so much fun looking at old toys and hiding from “people” :P We know how to make eachother smile and laugh without even thinking about it, it just happens :) We can always make things better no matter what and these are the types of things I love about us :D In my eyes, we honestly are the perfect couple :D We’re perfect because we’re happy. We’re happy just to be with one another and to have the other to make eachother smile and laugh. We’re just us and that is why these ten months have been the greatest and happiest of my entire life :D Just having him <333 :D :D
I love you soooo sooo soo much Bradly James Mocniak and nothing will ever ever ever change that ! :D :D <3333
Happy 10 months again ! :D :D :D And thank you so much for making them the bestestestest ! :D :D <333
:’)
Tears of happiness :D
Movies and snuggling with the most amazing guy in the world tonight ! :’D
Can’t wait can’t wait can’t wait ! :’) :’)
Tehe I love you :D :D <333333
This is…
Happiness (:
Hi, I’m happy :)
No actually, I’m Lacey, but I really am beyond happy :)
I really do have the best boyfriend in the world. Words can’t even describe the amazing feeling that washes over me when I am with him.
I call that love :D
Last night was so beyond words :D
Just being with him made me feel so HAPPY, I dont even know what to say or how to say it (:
I made him a surprise which consisted of all of the wall posts and statuses we made about eachother or to eachother ever since we first started talking. When we were looking at them together, I wanted to just cry.
Crying, why is it an emotion always based around sadness?
I wanted to cry from joy, from happiness.
Why ?
Because of how much they meant then and how much they mean now :)
He’s always meant the world to me :)
Yesterday, he told me not to wear ANY make up.
He made it a point to remind me MULTIPLE times not to.
While looking in one another’s eyes he told me I’m beautiful without make up, and that I shouldn’t wear any,
Because it’s the real me,
And I look prettier that way.
He’s the sweetest guy in the whole world,
And ALL mine, forever and ever <3 :D
Later on, he sang to me :)
“Just The Way You Are”
In the first couple months of talking, he’d always tell me the song reminded him of me :)
It came on the radio last night, (as we were cuddling :)) and we started reminiscing about it, and I told him he should sing to me :)
And he did :)
It made me cry :’)
I love my Bradbear sooo much :D Thank you for making me the happiest girl in the whole wide world !! :D <333
I am sorry. This is my written apology for everything. Every single thing, every single lie, every screw up, and every wrong turn. Every tear shed, every night ruined, and all that is gone and can not be returned. I’m sorry and that is why I’m writing this. I need to prove something; I need to prove a lot. I hope this means for what it is worth.
First of all, I know what I am, and I admit it. I’m an idiotic, stupid, chronic liar. I tell lies to keep me from lying and it never helps anyway. It only makes things worse. I learned that tonight. I learned a lot tonight. A lot more than I ever have. I lied about music. Stupid, pathetic, not-even-worth-it music. I lied about who I was getting from. That was the most idiotic thing ever. Wow, now that I think of it over, that is so stupid. I can’t believe I hurt you and I over music. What a dumbass I am. I lied about going on Facebook. It really makes no sense. It would’ve been so much easier to just tell the truth instead of getting myself caught up in all those lies. Once again, so stupid. I lied about pants. I lied about not having any pants because I wanted to wear shorts. At first I really didn’t think I had pants, but then I did. But I continued lying to cover up the first. I wish I would’ve just told the truth. It would’ve been so much easier. I lied about crying, and not crying. You’re right, how can you help me whenever I don’t tell you whether or not I’m crying? Ugh, I want to go back and fix it all. I’m so sorry. Last of all, I hid what classes I took. I got so scared to tell you because I knew you’d be so mad. I didn’t know when to tell you or how to. But I’m so sorry. I feel like the most terrible person in the world. I can’t stop crying and I know I caused this. I realize how much grief I’ve caused and I hate it. I hate it I hate it I hate it. I hate myself for doing this to us. I don’t know how you’re going to forgive me, but I hope so much one day you will. Finally, I know I’m a chronic liar. Once again, I admit it, and it’s changing.
I hate being without you. I can not take this. I can barely even breathe or see as I type this. My eyes are red as fire and my lips taste of salt. My face burns as my eyes do. But you’re right, this is what I need. I need a realization even though I can not take it. I can’t take this. I hope this only lasts for the night as you say it will. I miss you. I miss you being mine. You’re my Bradbear; I need you in order for me to live. I need you. I need you more than the air I breathe and my eyes to see. I need you more than everything and anything.
You know what, you’ve done so much for me, only to have me mess things up. I feel like such an idiotic bitch. You’re the one who has been there through it all. I just watched that slideshow I posted on your wall on April 2nd and I can not stop balling my eyes out. All of it means so much. Every single big thing, little thing, things said mean the world. You’re the only guy I could ever have a pet tiger with, the only guy who could say one thing and make me break down because I’m so happy to have you. You’re the only one who I’d save a dandelion from because you specially picked it just for me. You’re the only guy I’d wish on stars for, and still do. You’re the only one who knows me enough to know exactly when something is wrong by the way I look or talk. You’re the one who showed me love. You’re the one who gave me a note which begins “What I love about you…” whenever we first began dating (I still have it). You’re the one who I’d stay up late chatting with on Skype, just so we could see each others smiles at the things we’d type. You’re the one who makes me smile even whenever I think it’s impossible. You’re the one I can have tickle fights with and know EXACTLY where each other are most tickly. You’re the one I go to see scary movies like Insidious with, or little kid movies like Rio with. You’re the one I call a little baby blue bird who says “Baaalalalalalvvvavavavva”. You’re the one who I have the best secret handshake ever with. You’re the only one who understands what “fighting” is, and how it came to be. You’re the only one who I’d ever want to use winky faces with, and you will be the only one. You’re the only one I’d make a paper chain for, but end up connecting it anyway because circles last forever and that’s how I want our relationship, forever without an end. You’re the only one I can be with for so long and still never want to leave. You’re the only one I can go to Kennywood with and not want to go home. You’re the only person who can get me to face my fears of heights and get me to ride the Pitt Fall, and make me want to ride it again. You’re the one who cares about me the most. You’re more proud of me than anyone ever has been. You’re the only one who can make up such cute ideas like Ceybra time. You’re my cuddle bug. You’re the only one I’m going to be cuddling with for the rest of my days. You’re the only one I’d do this for. You’re the only one I want to be in their arms forever. You’re the only one who’d want to come to my dance recital both nights even though it’s like 6 hours long, and you have to get up super early the next morning for work. You’re the only one I’d want to be perfectly happy with not doing anything with, just hanging out and talking. You’re the only one I can stare into your eyes and be perfectly happy and trusting in you. You’re the only I trust. You’re the only one who has gotten me such nice Christmas gifts that I wear every single day from then on, along with a 4 page long written promise to love me forever, in pen, because it can not be erased. You’re the one who will take me to Build-a-bear to make a bear and name it Ceybra so I can sleep with it every night. You’re the one who I will buy a journal with little blue birds on it so we can write about our experiences together and have it forever and ever. You’re the one who will win me a stuffed tiger before we even met in person. You’re the one who I will always think of making my freshman year so amazing, and the rest of my life. You’re the one who will surprise me with roses on Valentine’s Day the first time you come over my house. You’re the one I will do anything for. You’re the one I can say I am meant to be with forever. You’re the one whose flowers I put in a vase and put in my room, not anyone else’s. You’re the boyfriend who will buy me a blue penguin and a key to his heart. I still think that is the sweetest thing ever. You’re the boyfriend who knows what I mean when I say lemon kiss or buttons buttons buttons. You’re the only one who can put up with me, and I thank you times a million for that. You’re the one who bought me Claire the journal for our 6 months because you know how I am with writing. You’re the one who I’m going to spend my old days with, sipping lemonade on the front porch with our gray hair. You’re the one who still have my corsage from the Christmas dance from. You’re the one I still have the boxes from my Christmas presents from. You’re the one who I’ll stay up with until 4 in the morning on the phone talking about old Nickelodeon shows and how much stuff has changed. You’re the one who knows I wanted to be a butterfly princess and I know you wanted to be a train conductor because of Thomas. You’re the one who I’m perfectly content with sitting on the floor looking at old baby pictures with. You’re the one who I saved all the stars that were thrown down my shirt from you. You’re the one who won me a puppy and cute duckling from Kennywood because we’re each others puppies and cute ducklings. You’re the one who will give me a Thomas the train pez because it connects both of our childhoods. You’re my Bradbear. You’re my everything. You’re my darling. You’re my love. You’re my super strong, sweet, cute, hot, adorable, sexy, amazing, beyond perfect husband, and always will be. You’re the one who wishes me luck before every volleyball practice or tournament and tells me to kick some ass. You’re the reason I try to. I do it all for you. Nothing can amount to what you’ve done or how amazing you’ve been to me. You’re the one who knows me the best. You’re the one who buys me little notebooks “because all the writers do”. You’re the one who I text constantly and never get bored. You’re the one I roll around on the floor with and give muffs to. You’re the only one who can make me feel like a five year old again when you pick me up. You’re the only one who can make me feel like a princess when you spin me around and pick me up. You’re the one I kiss on the lips, nose, cheeks, ears, and neck. You’re the one who is my prince. You’re the one who opens all the doors for me. You’re the one who pays for everything for me. You’re the one I have one heart with. You’re the one I hammered shoes laces to stoves with and fought Quakers with. Nobody else. All of this has been you, Bradly James Mocniak.
This explains why I need you in my life, I need you forever. I need you to be mine. Nobody else’s. I want no one else to have my everything. All of those things above that you are, I want it all to be mine. I want those to be living memories, memories I can easily talk to you about and that will make us happy and smile. I don’t want us to forget any of that. I need you love. I need you forever and ever. I need you to be all of those things with me. That is why you mustn’t leave. Finally, I want our future.
Our future is something we always talk about, and I love it. I love having you and knowing you want a future with me. The future with our dream jobs, and big house. The one with the turret, because I think they look kool. Also having the huge window with an amazing view. And pictures all around the house ! Of our family and everything ! Our little orange kitty who we will name Tiger, after our famous tiger. Violette Rose and little Bradly Jr. And me not being in the kitchen all the time, haha! Seriously, its all so perfect! I want it ! I want our future ! Our perfect amazing one ! Where we can sit our kids down and tell them all about us and how we met and fell in love and about our tiger and everything ! I want it all ! That’s our future and I plan on having it, and can not wait to be with you forever. I do not want to live a second longer than you, because I need you in order to live. I love you so much Bradbear, I really do.
I always have and always will.
So I leave you with the fact I’m changing. I’m changing the lying and the hiding things. I told you it all tonight. It’s changing because it has to. I realized so much tonight. I realized one little mistake could end us. I love you babe. I’m changing for the better and that is how its staying.
I love you sooo much Bradly James, always will forever and ever.
Take me back, please ?
I love you forever and not a second less,
Your Lacey.
First day of summer 2011 :)
Well, my freshman year is officially over. I must say, this year has brought me to things I never thought would come down my path of life. Fate is something instantaneous and it’s made my life honestly 100,000,000,000 better.
August 2nd is the first day my boyfriend and I began talking. So, a little less than 2 months, it will be so that my boyfriend and I have basically been in love for a little under a year :)
As of right now, we’ve been dating a little over 8 months, and those 8 months were what made my freshman year the way beyond amazing it has been (:
Looking back on it, I don’t want it to end. From staying up last summer talking to eachother, to seeing eachother at football games, to hugging in the hallway, to our first kiss, to the first time we hung out, to our first dance, to kissing at the new year, to being bad, to making our own inside jokes, to taking pictures together, to always being there, to staying up on the phone, to my first time on the Pitt Fall, to being together on our last day of being a freshman and a sophomore. It was all perfect. And having someone to share all of that with is something indescribable.
Today was amazing (: It is definitely a perfect beginning to the amazing summer we will be sharing together and the years to come :) I’m so happy with it. Pictured above is the two of us napping together, how cute :D
It was the best start to a summer ever. I really do have the best boyfriend in the whole wide world. Who else can say they have a boyfriend who will just lay there with them and take a nap? Who else can say their boyfriend and them look through baby pictures of eachother andhave the time of their life? Who else can say their boyfriendcatches shooting stars for them to make wishes on? Who else can say their boyfriend and them already talk about what kind of house they’re going to have and what they’re going to name their children? Who else can say they have the best memories out of all of them, with their boyfriend? Who else can say “awhh” at the way their boyfriend says something? I know that I can. I love you Bradly James Mocniak (:
Our tiger went on a mission to Paris. Once arrived in Paris, he felt flustered and out of place being a tiger and all. Suddenly, a note dropped out of the sky landing in his left paw. Looking up, he saw a blue bird smile at him. The note read “Meet me at 927 Lovebird Lane.” So that is what he did. At this address he found himself a turtle. Not only was this turtle very old and wise, but also his missions keeper. He told the tiger what to do. He must rescue a family of blue birds from the top of the Eiffel Tower.
“Now,” thought the tiger, “this might be my easiest mission ever. I’ll just fly to-“
Interrupting the tiger’s train of thought, “You must climb. The engine from anything else will startle the birds causing them to fall.”
Without further thought, the tiger ventured into the streets of Paris. He soon laid his eyes on his mission. Ascending each new level was a difficult task. About 3/4 of the way up, he lost his balance and began to fall. Right below him was a trampoline which bounced him almost all the way to the top! How lucky! Once at the top, he realized there was no way of getting the birds back to the bottom ! With some creative thinking he had an idea. There was a mommy, a daddy, and 4 and 1/2 babies. The half meant the bird was partially in an egg still.
He thought to throw the small blue birds off, expecting them to gain air resistance and then fly. The babies had not been taught yet, so they must learn off of instinct and help from the parents. As the birds flew, the tiger would run down the tower as fast as possible to the bottom to retrieve the birds. Just when….
The evil white bird flew in! He did not only act evil, but looked the part too ! With scraggly feathers making him look like he escaped KFC right before cooking time, a rotten green beak, and two beady orange eyes. He wasn’t a sight for sore eyes. In fact, he usually caused people’s sore eyes, or made them worse.
With one swoop of a strong, striped paw the tiger knocked the white bird off of the tower ! He could not regain his balance due to the loss of feathers, and let’s just say nobody heard his monotonous squawkingaround town anymore.
The birds flew off of the tower, and the tiger sprinted down ! Right in time, the tiger was there to catch the only one needing assistance, the one who was partially not hatched yet. He was making sounds of “Balalavvavalalalallllaavvva”. Obviously, he was the tiniest bird that was ever heard of. He had huge blue eyes that you just had to say “awhh” whenever you looked at him. Being so little, he had no feathers, only bright blue fluff surrounding his tiny body. His feet were smaller than toothpicks and he was unsturdy while walking. The most peculiar thing about him as his beak. It varied with colors of purple, blue, and a light green. They were all so vivid and sort of hyptonizing if you looked at them for too long.
The family of blue birds and the tiger trecked back to 927 Lovebird Lane to meet the turtle. As it turned out, the turtle was the owner to these birds.
“Ahh, I see the littlest one has finally hatched,” he said, taking a close look at the slumbering bird in the tiger’s paw.
The tiger just gave a loving look towards the tiny creature and nodded his head.
“He seems to really like you, how do you feel about being a dad? I think once he matures a bit he will be a great assistance to your missions.”
Hearing this, the tiger started to hop around excitedly but very quietly, not wanting to wake the newborn.
“He’s yours, I know you two will make a great team,” said the wise one with a smile.
So off went the tiger with the sleepy new blue bird…to be continued…..
Well Bradbear, I added on to the nap nap story, I hope you like it :) I hope it means something :)
Tonight, my 11:11 wish will be, along with BEING TOGETHER FOREVER AND EVER HAPPILY, is being able to hear my love’s voice tonight, and to be forgiven, do you think you can help make that come true love ? :)
You mean the world to me, thank you soooo much for today ! :D It was beyond amazing ! :D Like so so so so beyond perfect ! 6 1/2 hours of being together, I loved every jiffy !!! :D :D You’re the bestestest ! :D
Grrrrrroooooowwwwwlllll !!! ;D ;D
I love you the mostest Bradly James, my Bradbear ! :D <33333
My very first sestina
Though it’s still very raw and unedited yet, I’m actually pretty proud of it. That’s why it’s being posted. I just kind of gave it a shot, and its not too bad for my first one. I think this is a good starting point and I can’t wait to write more.
For those of you who are like “What the heck is she talking about?” Here’s an explanation http://www.wikihow.com/Write-a-Sestina.
1 The day is not dark
2 We smile and say hello
3 Speaking above whispers
4 I want you to stay
5 For I see your eyes filled with stars
6 I’m a bit tangled.
6 Though my thoughts are sometimes tangled
1 And I can’t see even though it’s far from dark
5 I find purpose in the stars,
2 Whenever you use my name with hello.
4 I hope you will stay,
3 Even if I can’t hear your whispers.
3 I may not hear, but I understand the whispers
6 I don’t feel as tangled
4 We’re getting closer, you tell me you will stay
1 You’re the only one I see in the dark.
2 Closer, and above hello
5 I see your name in the stars.
5 They’re my close friends knowing my passions, the stars
3 Under them, I hear your whispers.
2 Look at us now, all starting with a hello
6 Now I’m not, but we are tangled.
1 Ever so, in the dark
4 Let’s stay.
4 For that is the answers to my worries, stay-
5 Under the twilight as it grows cold under the stars
1 No longer light, I can see your expression in the dark
3 We say our dreams, under hushed whispers
6 And together we become more tangled.
2 Forget hello.
2 Its gone, we don’t remember the term, hello.
4 I know you’re going to stay-
6 Out here in the open, only caring about one another, tangled-
5 We worry about nothing, for our only audience are the stars.
3 Communicating in other ways, we no longer whisper.
1 I’m so happy the light is dark.
6&5 In eachother we are tangled physically, mentally, and emotionally, the stars know where we are-
2&4 Speaking no hello’s staying where we are-
3&1 Just us, the whispers, and the dark of night.
Words can’t even describe…
How happy he makes me (: I have the best boyfriend ever, I love love love late night phone calls with the guy I’m spending forever with =] I’m not going to sleep, I don’t want it to end :D I love you sooo much Bradly James Mocniak <3
I have….
the sweetest, most caring, amazing, perfect, and BEST boyfriend in the world :D
I have the bestestest boyfriend in the world :D :D
Working on his birthday present alllllll night and then staying up to wish him the best 16th birthday ever ! :D
I love you Bradly James Mocniak <333
